see

the tightness forms around my neck, it is pushing me

down and

down and

i’m angry at what you did to me

you spit out words about welcoming your family

and even though you are a mother you still can’t see

that you’re drowning in your own

hypocrisy.

in your courageous move to set yourself free you’ve

locked yourself in

and

swallowed the key.

what is it that you

even ever wanted

from me

-to cover your own insecurity?

to give you the job

the green light

the attention

for

your pregnancy?

you didn’t care

you were

in the car

you ran on the lowest

frequency

and still you attacked and

kept notes on their delinquency.

they were shadows the shadows that

hid your

inability

to change

to get better to see

with clarity.

don’t tell me whether or not

i should change the key.

where i should send your barely earned money.

just leave us alone-

you are no longer

part

of this family.