bad news? that's how i feel.
good news? today means change.
i had decided a while ago that after closing food matters i would make some changes. despite my general tendency to eat well, my life has become extremely toxic lately, particularly since announcing our closing to the public six weeks ago. and while the wound is still fresh and i am not quite ready to talk about all the issues surrounding that place, i am ready to feel better. i have become so tightly wound that i am fearful of even stopping for a moment to take care of myself. i am afraid that even allowing myself to relax one bit will result in a whole new wave of emotion that i am not ready to face. so first step is that i do begin caring for myself and that means i face whatever comes with a clean and clear mind.
for thirty days i am removing alcohol, sugar, grains, beans, legumes, and dairy from my diet. i had planned to start with just the alcohol but i was inspired by a fellow holistic mom, sarah, who decided to do a strict Paleo challenge called The Whole 30 Challenge. since doing the Paleo diet (by following advice from the Paleo Solution) a few months ago and losing a whopping 15 pounds, i knew i'd benefit even more. so with a little will power and support from friends who have either been off the wagon for a while or are going on the wagon with me this month i plan on feeling a whole lot better in thirty days.
everyone keeps asking what tom and i will do next and we don't have an answer for them. things are exciting and incredibly frightening all at the same time. i have really come to realize how incredibly fortunate i am to have such amazing friends and family. they have come forward these past few weeks in ways that i could never have asked for and really carried our family through the process of letting our little dream go. i have learned a lot about leaning on people, something i have never been good at, and i am hopeful that the next few weeks will be a time of healing for me, for tom, and for our precious family.
and i promise to keep you posted:)
4 sign(s) of love:
BIG sign of love.
You remain an inspiration, Christy. Your candor and courage remind me of my responsibility to myself and my child, and that I am not alone. Thank you, again and again.
How are you doing, Christy? Be easy on yourself - you have a lot going on right now! I've found this time of year to be ideal for doing this type of detox since there are so many fresh vegetables at arm's reach. I think I have been overdoing the fresh fruit, though. :) Since I can't do eggs right now, I am eating a ton of meat!
Thank you Norah. I hope we are able to meet again (on either coast!) someday.
Sarah, you have no idea how much your date comment the other day helped me! I went to Mom's and bought some dates (and some rolled in coconut) and allowed myself to enjoy the sweetness. You are right about this being the best time of the year to detox. i can't imagine how you do it without eggs! It feels like it's getting easier, thank God!
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